I was expressing to Nich today that sometimes, when I hear of girls (women my age) going out and doing things with each other, that I feel very lonely and left out, even though I'm not at all close to them. I then had this realization that even if I had friends, I wouldn't have time for them in my life right now. I work every week day until mid-afternoon, and the evenings/nights I don't work, I (or we) am involved in a ministry. Sunday is really the only day completely OFF, and we need that time together.
Is this where I am supposed to be, God?
"If the God you believe in as an idea doesn’t start showing up in what happens to you in your own life, you have as much cause for concern as if the God you don’t believe in as an idea does start showing up. It is absolutely crucial, therefore, to keep in constant touch with what is going on in your own life’s story and to pay close attention to what is going on in the stories of others’ lives. If God is present anywhere, it is in those stories that God is present. If God is not present in those stories, then they are scarcely worth telling." ~ Frederick Buechner